After the null sensation over the decree nisi, an odd thing has happened tonight.
I signed the authority forms to allow The Boyfriend to 'purchase' my 'half' of the marital home.
Now its just a case of waiting until more money than I've ever seen appears in my bank account, and the transfer of property happens automatically.
For some reason, this has affected me far more than the whole marriage thing. It hard to articulate. I think its seeing something you've worked for for the last 14 years suddenly be taken away and enjoyed by someone else.
Its only a 'thing', and there will always be First-born, and I don't like feeling this way about something so material.
But I'm feeling really down tonight.
Time for bed.
